To let go

Softly and gently I let go. Yesterday I deleted all pictures from an former lover. Once upon a time he was everything I thought I desperately needed. A few days ago I cried when I felt into every past relationships. I remembered the good times and the difficult ones. I wept for all the hurt and wounding. Through tears I felt grateful for everything. Today, I deleted, removed and blocked the one man my body responded naturally and organically to. I deeply want to respect his time to process and find his way. And access denied on my behalf. Not as punishment. Not as a spoiled brat. But as a organic, human being. He can't, wouldn't, don't have the capacity or whatever ever it is, to be my sun and to claim me as his. Without hurt or anger I release him. Walk in peace. You wonderful man and flawed human being. I love you. And I know my self worth. Gracefully I open my hands, heart and womb. You are free. Leave in peace.

It's leaving me bare. Split open but at peace. I trust the process. It's all in due time. The inner command is clear: Bloom! I feel my own spine and center. Let beauty and dignity guide me. Gracefully and courageously I soften in to my new reality. Without any strings. Free at last. No unhealthy attachment. Free to feel, see and sense the man that's ment for me. No unavailable man filling the space and the view.

It's no longer a fight. It's all in due time. Like leaves falling in the autumn. Ready for a new season. Every ending has a new beginning. Always and forever.

Stepping into thin air. The unknown. What holds. What returns? What is yet to come? Life. Blessed Be.