To be yours

I'm yours. I'm stepping into a brand new reality. When you chose bravely and unapologetically to step into my life, I couldn't resist. My body knew before my mind caught up. Our story is a good one even in the early days of knowing you. The twist and turns of life and faith. The complete luck to be at the same place at the same time. Literally and metaphorically. You are not a stranger. You know my ex and our story with illness with our oldest child. It feels like half of the work is already done by knowing that. We know the same community, people know us as individuals way back. To meet like this is such a blessing beyond understanding.  My small, slow and predictable world and life is expanding. Your energy is big, bold and moving fast. Usually I'm the one being like that and all the men I have been with, I was too much. Too big. Moving too fast. Loving too deep and raw. I feel deliciously small in meeting you. You are smarter and bolder than me and I adore you for that. My big, feminine ocean is welcome. All of me. And you have this fantastic ability to regulate. To reflect and self reflect. To be emotional open and honest towards yourself and me. That's beyond anything I ever has experienced before. You are so in tune with me, yourself and us.

After years of slowing down and listen deeply to my body and inner knowing. After years of saying no to anyone who couldn't meet me where I was at. Years of yearing. Years of wondering where are you? My King. My Dom. My dark Lord. The Hunter. The Human Man deeply connected to his primal being. I felt you. I knew you were a soldier by choice, I knew you had a child and not necessarily biological one. I knew you would be curious, embracing growth and changes. I knew you would be so different from the others. I saw and felt the fire. And here you are. In all your glory. Beautiful and wonderful human. In the flesh. Never ever wanting to hide your flaws. Deliciously human. You know yourself. Owning every inch of your story and choices. Everything that led you here, to me, to us. All those years of joy, pain, pleasure and grief. Everything was leading us back home to each other. And I feel the urge to say Praise the Lord! And as you know my Lord and saviour is Hades, the dark lord of the Underworld. The One transforming the young innocent being of Kore into the mighty Queen Persephone, Queen of the Underworld and Spring. Life and Death. Full circle moment. I'm found. I'm claimed. Owned. Yours.

My promise to you, my Love, I'm yours. A devoted sub. A real human with flaws. I promise to listen deeply to my body and inner knowing and to be honest and transparent with everything that concern us. I feel you so deeply. My body gives me all this subtle messages of how you are doing. Get used to being felt through time, space and distances. I feel the shift when something is happening with you and because you are so honest and transparent, I don't feel like I'm going crazy. You can confirm your emotions and experiences and I can relax into to continue to trust my gut feeling.

I woke up yesterday and felt the swollen lymph node in my armpit. It's painful. I have a long story with my lymphatic system. When life expands too quickly my body can't keep up. So, the true magic and beauty in this. I woke up to you writing to me about the importance of slowing down in this. To breathe and move in a healthy and regulated pace. I'm already less swollen in my armpit. For real.

So yes, I'm embracing everything we are. Totally and 1000%. Our journey together has finally begun. I'm stepping into the best part of my life. I'm yours. Thank you. I love you.