The strange moment

When your ex is talking highly about the man you really like. Without knowing. I didn't say much but could ( wholeheartedly) agree. And it's fascinating to know and learn about people from different perspectives. How my ex sees him and how I feel him. He is a great man, no matter what happens next.

I feel into several things. It's effortless to feel into a future together. Yes, I'm careful to not let it spiral out in dreams and fantasies. AND sometimes it's crucial to actually think and feel things through. The pratical stuff. We do have families and people in our lives. Emotional stuff, things to work on and out. I have been married for 20 years, I'm not naive. I know it's so much in relating to another human being. It's almost overwhelming if you truly feel into it.AND, when I met him after such a magical ritual, I felt instantly at peace. The fear melted away. Every concern and worry. Gone. I'm still not naive. But my body knows. I'm not over thinking and that's a good sign. My body knows. My mind knows. If he becomes my reality, we will find a way to move forward. I can truly trust and rest in that.

And yet again, my feminine prayer is still be gentle with my yearing and softly letting go of attachment to outcome. He knows. I want all of him. All of him is welcome. All of him is loved and adored. I yearn to kneel for him and to know it's welcomed and deeply appreciated by him. My deepest promise is always to touch him. To never withhold physical touch and intimacy. Our primal animal bodies bonds deeply in our need for touch, skin to skin and sex.

Sweet Life. I'm ready to commit deeply and for real. And I'm willing to let it all go. Only life truly knows. What I feel is so real and life knows what I need to grow even deeper into my feminine surrender. Soft heart, open legs, warm body I choose to trust even deeper. Amen.