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.. or not. I still have this huge writing block. I write whenever I feel the urge but still no daily routine. I subscribed to Headspace again and it's quite expensive. Unlike working out, meditation is something I want to do but I can't find an routine and make it a habit. Paying for it, usually helps. And to the not so sexy side of it. Last time I meditated regularly, my depression hitted hard and made me really scared. What the fuck! Yes, it's a side of it that rarely get mentioned. To pay attention and awareness to myself when life was crazy and hard, made it worse. For real. In the silence every fucking ugly monster from my subconscious appeared. So yes... Deep breath. I know life is different now. I have less stress in my body, my oldest isn't critically ill anymore, my youngest is thriving. Still, I'm feeling it. Bit anxious for this new mindfulness journey. I need it. I want less time on social media, I want to be present with real life and meditation is a great tool, I know that. Wish me luck 🙏
I wish You luck🙏