Equinox blessings

I feel alive. I do feel my hormones but it's less a struggle and it eases up when I start to bleed. Longer days with daylight helps. It's almost a bit overwhelming to finally exhale and deeply understand I had my first winter without any depression. I have allowed myself way more sleep and rest. I have allowed myself full expression of what is. To feel everything without resistance. And softly asked to have the eyes and senses to actually feel and see what's holds. What supports,what gives energy and comfort.

It's been a deep surrender and it feels good to know I'm growing and building my nervous system capacity.

I'm working more conscious with tarot cards and chakras. It's nothing spiritual to me. It's my subconscious mind responding to pictures and art and I'm amazed how useful it is. My eros is so visible and it's life affirming in ways I can't explain with words. It's art living in me as vibrant, pulsating, living pictures. It's deeply felt and a huge help.

Spring Equinox is coming up. Still slightly cold and I long for less clothes and more bare skin. I feel my rabbit natur. Lol. Chronically horny. Or everything in my life is drenched with eros. It's less full on horny or sexual. But like a slow, delicious glow or fire I feel in my body and it's affects everything I do. I smile more. I walk with less tension in my hips. I'm dancing and singing more. I embrace every day greeting the sun. I feel connected to myself and people around me. I'm in love with life. It's a cliché maybe but it feels damn good.

As a woman my libido and eros are my responsibility. I turn myself on by living a life that feels good and in a way that supports my hormones and nervous system. I don't need a man for that. It helps, for sure. But it's my own practice to connect and reconnect back to my erotic nature. More than ever I know I want to deeply commit myself to stay true to my eros. I want a relationship with deep commitment to the erotic. Never again will I make myself small or less when it comes to sex and the erotic. I'm done being shamed for who I am.

I'm so curious how life would feel like when eros, touch and conscious sexual practice are a part of it. Years in. I deeply believe it's possible to cultivate a highly and deeply erotic life long after the "honeymoon phase ".

I feel alive. Juicy. Calm. Excited. It's spring. It's melting. It feels good to embrace it all. I'm so deeply grateful. To be on the other side of the dark night of the soul. To step into the sun and embrace everything good.