D/s and growth

Feeling into the stories about submissive women. How the Dominant man gives her peace of mind, a time out from everyday life. A pause and a break. How she handl life on her own. Doing everything and being everything for everyone else than herself. I have been there. Needing the time to drop into my body and catch my breath. And it isn't like that anymore. I don't need you to rescue me from my everyday life.If you want to be my Dom, know that I don't need you for those things. I can regulate on my own. I can drop into my body and give myself a break and slow time. I'm not doing everything on my own. I'm supported and people cares for me. I'm strong but not super independent. I'm well rested and know how to take care of myself.

So, what do I need and want? I crave growth and authenticity. To expand in trusting someone else to take me places I can't on my own. Or where other people can't reach me. Kink, yes. Sex is stripping everything away. Done honest and raw, sex is the place where only the truth remains. For real. And deeper, true devotion. True service. True intimacy. Hard core, naked, raw truth.

I haven't been there yet. Met the man who is brave enough. Who craves it, in the deepes of his own core and being. It's a different kind of man. He knows he wants more of life. He is courageous and brave in himself and in intimate relationships. He won't settle for less. For lukewarm and good enough. He crave his woman and the truth. To dare every uncomfortable conversation. To burn away everything we both have learned about relationships and sex. To find our own path. To dare even when the world finds it ridiculous and even wrong. D/s is all fun and games until people slowly realise it's way more serious and deep than just the kinky play. Talk to people about Devotion to your man. Talk about being corrected and lead by him. Talk about serving him. I'll bet some people get really uncomfortable.

The biggest lesson at the moment is to trust that I don't waste my time. I'm a tad impatient. I don't want to waste years by waiting. I want to grow, learn and explore with a man. I feel ready. My life is opening up. It's space, time and capacity to invite him in. And yet again, my submission is made here, in this waiting years. I know. As a submissive woman it's essential to trust life. To know the timing is perfect. To stay soft and honest in it all. Amen.