And suddenly...

are you there. Again. Always from afare. For so many years. Sporadically. Random. Sudden. Then months and years of silence. I shrugged it of. I always did. You were never ment to be close to me. And yet, here we are.

You are triggering deep healing in me. So much of it is similar. All my previous wounds in relating to the Dark, wild and dominant masculine are split open again. And there you are. Steady. With integrity. With deep care and deep listening. I feel how my body and nervous system are relaxing. You are not here to hurt me or exploit me. You are here as a steady, beautiful reminder. Men wants what's best for me. Men wants to be part of the healing.

I'm honest with you in ways I never have been before. It's been a journey. I'm so proud of my own growth and ability to dig deep. This is me choosing and living my best life. You are mirroring it. Showing me deep respect and transparency. My voice matters. My feelings and body matters. You ask questions and requests answers. Even when I'm scared. Even when I feel exposed and vulnerable. You feel the beauty of my trembling heart.

And! For real. The outcome isn't important. If life gives me you, I'll fall on my knees and thank God I'm born. If life takes it in another direction, I'll always be deeply touched by your healing power. You made me believe in the healthy masculine again. Thank you.